[Alarm ringing]
Roll over
Eyes close, arms flail
Snooze.
[Alarm ringing]
Roll over
Eyes open and stare
The harsh blue light reflecting on my pale face
Numbers on the screen
Judging my life decision
10 AM
How about I get up in 10?
[Snore]
[Groaning noises]
Boil water
Where did I put my coffee?
Milk
Cereal
Bowl
Routine. Boring. Sad. I’m late
[Wardrobe creaking]
Hoodies and jeans
From yesterday
Nobody will notice
Right?
[Playing “Calm Down” by Rema & Selena Gomez]
[# Vibez]
[# Another banger]
Lightrail
Bobbing my head to the Afrobeats
Pumpin’ myself up as I look at people on the street
[# Why you no wan’ conform? Uhum]
What do people think about me?
Do people still listen to this song?
Why did I say that in class?
Did I just make eye contact with this random guy?
I'm overthinking
[# Baby, calm down].
[Playing “Lose Yourself” by Eminem]
Definitely late for tutes
Should I run?
[# Knees weak, arms are heavy]
Does it even matter
[# Mom’s spaghetti]
Do I need to do a grocery run?
Marshall Mathers
Follow me
As I entered…
[Keyboard clicking]
References and rubric
Assignments stuff
Lofi’s doing its job
Steady beats, predictable
Forgettable
Like the impending deadline
[Clocks ticking]
[Silent]
Ideas drained
I still have so much to do
Can I even pass?
Walking home
Empty
Clock’s ticking louder and louder
I’m running out of time
Glorious 20s
When can I be free?
Imagine myself 10 years from now
Smiling, happy, content
Waving at me as she told me to listen
I lean in
Just do it you [expletive] lazy piece of [beep]
She said
“Great.” I replied
Turns out I hate myself
Can’t stand my thoughts
Headphones on
[Playing “As It Was” by Harry Style]
[# Go home, get ahead, light-speed internet]
Thanks Harry
Maybe that’s what I needed
Just the list of things to do in life
Everything’s routine.
Like my heartbeat.
